The New Year's Gift:

The reflection that looked so deep
the glass shatters with a blast
Meaning lost with all the blame
And of things that can't last

Questioning self again
What is it that i missed?
The answers came all pouring down
Like it never did

The brooding won't really help
But catharsis' all I've got
Some things are better left unsaid
But are they best forgot?

The lessons aren't meant to be learnt
The jaded fibs and rhymes
The co-actor's part that played out
Like a crime
The play thus ends like everything
Must some day, some time
All the things that could have been
Clears the heart and mind

The heart then aches and oozes
Indirect was the cause
The definite close for a chapter
But will i ever miss what never was?

Level zero

The rush of happiness and roaring rage
Things of all that may be envisaged
Everything is over, the end of the road
A rigid reluctance, if truth be told

Nothing was ever predicted before
Suddenly how's it an uncertain lore?
Like a free fall or a crashing plane
But things will never be the same again

How will it be, do I want to know?
The truth is no, still looking, I suppose
Only a grey cloud from the window I see
God! What's with all the secrecy?

A better path, they say, is yet to come
A humorless laugh I subject for some
Excuses, excuses! what better to say?
Time still goes on while making hay

Stomping forward, the turn I see
Tilting my head discreetly
With shoulders down yet pace ahead
The space which leads me to me

A declaration

Now or never, tonight the wait forever
Is drawing an end, trying to mend
Daylight is drawing too thin
Here we are, biding our time,
In fact the hands are itching
I can barely stop from committing a crime,
Wish I didn't have the mind, but
In my heart I know what's right
Little pieces of me, sums up
Little pieces of wisdom
All the temptations can't reason it out
Love will win but apathy works it out
Ways to win? What you take this for a game?
Ain't gonna fall for something so lame
Yesterday ends as it must one day
Sun must rise on the morrow if strayed
Listening to the inner voice , strapped in chains,
Over the heels I ain't, anymore in vain
Vacuity looks like its here to stay
Enter night, I will wait for the day
Under the looming darkness, hay can't be made.

A sweet dream

There you were and so was I
How the happiness fills my eyes
So close we are, what's this I see?
How can this be just a dream?

If it is, don't wake me up
Don't let me face the day no more
I'm happy in this sweetest bliss
Where things don't go wrong, it seems
Where I can speak my mind out loud
Where people understand and not too proud
Where I'm not alone in the crowd
Where there's no such thing as luck confound

A silent prayer's on my lips
A part of whatever I glimpsed
Please just let that part come true
When the journey's made for two

But what begins shalt surely end
I cringe, i sigh but smiles amend
Doesn't matter if my dream comes true
That part of me, I lived with you

Forever in love

People will come and they will go
But there's one thing you should know
You're stuck in my heart
And even if everything falls apart
I'll stay, cos you're always with me
I'm yours forever, you're within me
To stop loving you, impossibility
If you ask your heart, you will see
I'm right, right here for you, its true
There will come a million ways
But some things just don't change.

Uncertain roads

Alas a part of what was whole
A broken heart and tired soul
The path steadfast on which I walked
Has been blasted, has been shot

Creeping darkness death it seems
Would welcome it with open arms
But life it is none that I dreamed
Bleeding crimson on open palms

Upon that shiny star I pray
For deliverance or for some tourniquet
For dreams forgotten, eyes awake
With weight of world in mind he slept.
But he didn't sleep for long
His dreams didn't let him rest
Nightmares to whom they belong?
I want none of it for test

Waking up with heavy breaths
Wide awake scared by what I saw
Put this uncertainty to rest
Only one way my mind be thawed

No road ahead to look up nigh
I'll just have to make my way
Blast the mountain, tear the sky
This story far from over I say

So what if I have to walk alone
I'll be the one to wipe my tears
I'll be my guide, my coach lone
I'll fight on my own all my fears

The things sometimes that we bear
They can never understand
It is pointless to tear my hair
I make mistakes, I'm just a man

Giving up I do not know
For I can never quit trying
Upon the coldness of the snow
We will try and keep on riding

I will one day reach that point
Find my gold and find my shrine
Then I'll kneel with scraped knee joint
I hope its worth all pain to find.

Me and her....fate i.e.

the fate may conspire
It's a game to her, see
To say I let her,
Would be a joke on me
I look to the skies
Shake my head in retreat
I dance to her tunes
and sing to her beats
I laugh along
To myself I smile
I'm not giving up
I'll go on for a while
You may test me
Fill my paths with holes
I'll jump the small ones
For the big, use the poles
But I'll walk the path
and reach my goals
I'll try to be sane
and smile when I'm worn
But I won't stop tryin
cos it's not who I am
and I won't start lying
cos this is who I am.

Sweetest pull of destiny

The eagle flies above the cloud,
Thinking it'll escape the rain
No matter how much it pours down,
It escapes the drenching tears and stain
But you cannot out-think, out-run, out-fly,
Some things are just not meant to be,
From the darkest corners cannot escape,
The sweetest pull of destiny

My shadow, my only companion

The meaning's lost,
What hurt it caused
Can't see the shore
In horizon across

Onward i swim
Catching my breath
The cool waves won't
Douse the fire that's felt

What good are the oars
For the boat has sunk
What good is the lore
For the luck that's drunk

Sink or swim
Ain't die or live
The link of whims
Survived, it still

The wanderer wanders
And wonders amazed
How did it come,
Why did this surface?
How can I, the nomad be
Not unattached, not be free
I'll find myself under these troubled skies
Not the reflection, the one in their eyes

It will be severed
The bonds that bind
It will be levered
The story destined
The power of will
Put to my test
The company I trust
My shadow the best...

The stars, my friends

The stars come out
For they need me
To be my friend
For they miss me

I will tell them
The events befallen
The moments found
And those forgotten

I'll tell them how
I had my day
About my plans
For they will stay

They all blink
Sleepy I think
But they share
About things they care
And so do I
I'm their friend, aren't I?

Some too sleepy
Dreamworld bound
Crash to the ground
Ray of light astound

I close my eyes
Pray for them
All the wellness
At their helm

As we resume
The talks of town
The tears and joys
The feelings unbound

Millions of shoulders
All for me
Millions of comforts
Everything I seek

With lifted weights
I find my peace
Bid adieu to the stars
For being with me

Till the next day
Comes to pass
With more to listen
More to laugh

But for now
I'll call it a night
To my million friends
I bid goodnight.

Tanha safar

Poem courtesy Ms. EA

Ek mafhil thi dosto ki,
Jisme har vo saks tha,
Jinke sath aarzoo,
Hum karte thy,
Sub toh maad mast thy,
Ek dusre mein,
Hum mojud ho kar bhi,
Hum kahi nahi thy,
Mafhil mei rusva hue,
Tanha rahe,
Phir vo subha hui,
Thama humne dil ka hath,
Nikal paade khud ki talash mein,
Khud se pyar hua,
Ek naya sa alag sa,
Ahsaas hua,
Khud ki khushi,
Aur jinda hone ka ahsaas hua……

Nothing but the truth

how it helps and how it hurts
on and off music, sometimes i blurt
the words that were best left unsaid
To curb when I went unrestrained

what is right? who's to say?
with inner urge the words sway
the somethings that must be done
the somethings, from which we can't run

there's no emotion, good or bad
just the truth, steadfast, mistaken as cad
walk we must, for this path unfolds
the story continues, even if untold.

No sense

Cant's say I'm surprised,
can't say I'm shocked,
a little let down probably
but can't say I won't be mocked

A light moment here
A light laugh there
A little ray smeared
A little hope, that's that.

In the hurried play,
the scurrying rat falls
dusts itself, not to stay
Back in the muddy gall

Where forward doesn't mean ahead
And up is never high
When we take things further below the grave
when distance draws nigh
when night meets day
and left meets right
when the figment of imagination draws a line
and toeing doesn't bring respite!

Hoping and being resilient

Caged bird, winged dreams
reasons slurred, staged fleet
emotions stirred, down deep
tired soul, sleepy retreat

We shall rest, then will march
Zest no less, then we'll start
we will fight, we will win,
we will counter, their heads will spin
we will shatter them we'll daze
My turn is coming again!!

On a wing and prayer

sitting still, counting breaths
countless thoughts in the head
unbounded, free, imagination flies
one moment here, then up in the sky
not limited by distance, time or space
wonder why does it so behave
shows me pictures, happy and sad,
joyous one moment, and then a scare
skip a beat, then the heart pounds
slowly when the thought hits the ground
I forget myself, the troubles to be
in the moment, spellbound by what I see
Possibilities never possible before
Can the soldier ever dream of the throne
But who can stop the thoughts I have
and who can stop the dreams that fly
No such thing as 'never can'
On such a wing and Prayer I stand!

Battling with unhealed scars

I wish to be forgotten, wish to be remembered
It's like all the things I hate have assembled
Sooner the better, farther I'm safe
Let's just get this over with

Every breath, a cry for mercy
a cry for help, understanding
Every smile, painful, cursed, it seems
Wish someone else, in my shoes can stand in

But the battles are mine
Must be fought and lost
Some memories preserved
rest best forgot

Every day a new life begins
Every night the old life ends

I'd throw it all away, revoke the world
rebel away in a recluse, as the darkness curls
around me, I'm safe but you can't run
no matter where, when; destiny under the sun

Uncertainty swells as now I can't see
the darkness paralyses, the calmed nerves to be
Slowly I shrug, and leave the spot
Head for the battle, my axe so strong

I may win, I may lose, as it's meant to be
My actions create my own destiny!

Zombie

the sun sets, i still breathe

can't see, but i still feel

struggled with it, binding tension

stunted them with my restriction

blankness engulfs, stare ahead

with the crowd let myself led

a lot bled, was it too less

not good enough i tell myself

free will, i then impel

all the hopes off i dispel

scurry away you tiny wimps

better off without the limps

forward marching left and right

towards my goal deft upright

no blood left for you to spill

take my life, but you can't kill.

Moving ahead

This Saiyan will ascend

this Atlas shall Shrug

Break i might not bend

I'll do what must be done

I'm not running away from adversity
I knew what i was getting into
Impossible rules to follow
Just as Em says, the words he'd be droppin

I'm not turning my back

Shocked by inconsiderate city

I demand reason for this lack

But this ain't no longer the same

Ain't afraid of the challenges

Rather bored of this game

In this mist I wallow

This pit ain't as shallow as it seemed

looking hard for my halo

Don't get it twisted ya'll it's not a plea that i'm coppin

The Arian's march

Dreams to be seen, dreams to be lived
Dreams to be dared, dreams to fulfill
Daring to fly, hoping to soar
Wishing upon that star below
Loving so deep, caring so much
Touching the hearts, getting that rush
Unconditional it is, nothing to lose
Only to gain, here with you
Thankful I am, grateful for time
Nowhere else I'd be, here I am
Walking ahead, going so slow,
Sprinting in a jiffy, it's me you know
Dreaming a dream, living in the clouds
Not backing down, head full of doubts
Still I fly, testing my wings
Uncharted grounds, uncharted winds
so much more, left to do
But rest I must that's best for you
Tomorrow's the time for another kill
Another battle, another will
Discovering self, recovering heart
Resilient minds, shining in the dark
On we go, forward we thrust
With fierce fire and courage in us.

Partial Clarity, total inaction

The questions dissolve, in itself absolved
The truth lies in there somewhere, resolved
This picture, clearer, though the context obscure
Trying to comprehend, more answers in store

A few steps later, the path unfolds,
revealing the mysteries, capturing the soul
Upon I came, difficult paths bestowed
Do I follow my heart or follow my goals?

The passion re-ignited, impossible to forget
distort-able desires, unpredictable fates
unshakable values, though, mistakable dates
Escapable temptations, Irreplaceable moments

The mist upon this heart must rise
For I need to see the paradise
Will the one I want, be the one I'll get
Will the one I'll get be the one that'll suffice?

To be or not to be

To be or not to be
To breathe or not to breathe
Which path unfolding to be chosen
The green or not so green?

I speak as I ought to speak
I dream as I ought to dream
Somewhere the world turns topsy turvy
I scream as I ought to scream

I run but I lose the race
I'd rather stride my way
Still a rat, in the game
I'd rather make my day

Distant numb today
I had my time in breeze
Now all gone away
I'm down but then there's more beneath

Be deceived or pretend to be
Not sure, let go of the trapeze
Clutching the loose bricks
I climb
Is it me or am i going down deep

Should I feel what I ought to feel
A foolish fool for my dreams
Drowning in the deepest seas
Of lights I dream and I see

Is it real as real it can be
Or beyond the realm it feels
Should it matter, shouldn't wouldn't
Couldn't help my heart it's free

Was it freedom that I desired?
Was it comfort that was meant to be?
Why do I miss the water
Doesn't make sense any

Do I know what I want to be?
Or where or who's for me?
Can I speak what i ought to speak?
Can I dream what I ought to dream?

Can I sing as I ought to sing?
With the voice that's deep within
Waiting for a sign from up above
Maybe as I ought to i'll breathe.

Proud and Arrogant!

Proud and arrogant riding the wave,
If I fall down, I'm gon just get up again,
This world is just stable for a fleeting moment
This surfboard my mate, someday, might not go with

The time passes and now I walk,
This road that climbs up miles in the dark,
Towards the light I cannot see,
There will be sunshine, I do believe

Alone as I came, alone I'll go
Fighting the battles for they're mine to blow
Fire in belly, fierce my pride,
Manifestation of the storm inside,

Here I go, always armoured up
Striding my way, clamoured up
Soul that screams for things they say
I don't need yours I make my own way.