A sigh of recovery.

The day ends, but sadness doesn't end;
the bruise's better, the pain doesn't end
I smile and laugh, the ache I can't ignore,
There must be a better way I can mend

The stars so far, what use are they,
The moon gives false hopes everyday
The fire within has burnt me through,
The ashes that's left, the wind blew

The cuts and slashes on me,
wets through the tourniquet
It bleeds but never heals,
Only time, will not tell!

to the heavens I pray, Solidarity won't suffice
Those who help themselves, cry
and pray for help and mercy and hope
The will inside seems to subside

But yet again, resilient I
blast through the darkening sky
I'll be strong and unwavering
I'll live; yes I'll survive
and I shall rise again and again
You'll see when I arrive!

The last part of Darkness

They told me to take the leap,
They drove me off the cliff
Blindfolded and bound, terror within
All I had was zilch

No sight or leverage I have,
It’s just a clue I seek,
They mistook my swollen and bleeding back,
For their sword’s sheath

Wavering and losing balance,
I feel the narrow ledge,
I remember the times of my life,
Moments filled with regrets,

Uneventful though it was,
I’m glad that part’s done,
The one that could not be,
And the ones you wanted none


The nights when I used to sleep,
And ones that were blurred,
Between them and the day ahead,
Was the nightmare I preferred

I guess the fear’s dead,
Soon with it I’ll meet, Couldn’t live
Without when I was awake,
Can’t abandon when I’m asleep

Here I am waiting,
it’ll be my turn soon
Apathy’s what I’m feeling,
It came when I needed it to.

All Work

The tension is palpable, charged is atmosphere,
A joke's 'round the corner and then there's lurking fear,
Help's always at hand, but time always evades,
The forehead is always creased, and work dissuades

Eyes on the screen, hands on the board,
Knees shaking weak and scraps on the floor,
I know a little bit, left is so much more,
The warmth is cooling off, turning stone cold

Rising complexities, situation's a facade
No idea 'bout the processes, it seems like a mirage
Eyes and ear wide open and there's open mind
Need to laugh it all away, but for now, I'll whine

Need a lotta salt, to take what comes to you
Should know diplomacy and how to shrug, too
I cannot fake this stuff, I don't think you need luck,
I am what I am; face it, it's not tough.

Two months on, I'm still the new guy,
Pushed from behind, front and the other sides,
The hands that push, are the ones that guide me well,
Without them I'd fall right down on my head!

Still I tread on, shaking off expectations,
Monday blues yet to face; my voice's my suasion
Blending is not a biggie, the grinding's that I'm worried
I gotta do it right when all the time you are scurried

Here's wishing me good luck, let's see where we go
Goodbye comfort zone, I got this line to toe
There's so much left to do and so much to grow
Got this spirit alive and with hope we must go.

NEWBORN

Newborn in the storm,
Newborn not so strong
These gales and lightening scare and scar
Here do I belong?

The ideas are shunned away
Taboo they are dubbed
Pushed out of the nest
Ask ‘em and they get snubbed

The fire in the eyes don't seem will last,
Nor will the trust or desire,
Sapped is energy, I'm still running
Goals are beyond apparent reach and I'm tired

Pushed from all the sides,
Includes my heart and mind
Half-heartednes, mediocrity
For this am I destined?

The second love of my life,
For this I struggle and strive
My first love, beginning to fade
Achieving it seems so naive

The spark it does exist
Can vouch for eternal glow
The life that flows inside me
Is powered by beat and hope

Destiny! Is it written already?
Or do I get to make?
Or what I do is meant to be
With choice rests my fate?

i tread on by

there's something that stirs inside,
when you come home from the ride
and listen to the music your friend suggests
and you are about to cry..

this longing never ends,
how long do i pretend
i'm not just stuck on the wrong road
I'm just on the other side of the globe

but one day, it will come
i'll fly away from home
the dreams i dreamed will be mine
one day my heart will smile

with the dreams in my eyes,
one more day goes and another night
but soon i'll find the courage and strength
with this hope i tread on by.

SUR

I’m Afraid You Won’t Understand

I don’t look at you, I stare
The tiny moment when you are there
Everything about you I want to capture
In my mind, without you, there’s despair.

I can feel the air around you
Feel the sunlight touch your lips
The hair that’s so beautifully untied
And your hand that’s on your hips.

The smile you smiled was precious,
I remember it even today
The millions of times you crossed my path
& the times I made you wait

I spoke to you on the phone,
When I dreamt and when I was awake,
All the things I felt for you
Is in the chest deep locked away

Thrown away at the horizon
Now I’ve got nothing to say

You didn’t want to hear a word,
I would have never again taken the chance
I killed this Romeo’s poem
‘cause I’m afraid you won’t understand.

Someday I'll fly

Unaware, I fly, the winds take me high
This horizon’s new, so is surreal sky
Transcend new boundaries, test new winds
Ignorance rests as I flutter my wings

Birds of a feather, lost in the weather
Not a clue about the rule or the sun
But the birds are tough and glad together
Can get the things they want, done.

My seeking is unique; distance, inevitable
I am what I need, taking chance is debatable
Gambled I have with caution and heart
Tangled in a mosaic of interests and scars

There’s no answer to the gaping questions
That havent been forgotten, but never been asked
I wonder about the petty confessions
And wander about abandoned paths

I’ll need some time to think this through
To swallow and stomach distasteful rue
These wings will get me strong again
I’ll master the pyrotechnics one day

‘cross the mountains, past the sky
I’ll fly right; zoom past over July
I’ll fly above the clouded gloom
Where the tears don’t fall; above the hues

My blood and tears will have earned the price
I’ll be at peace, when I close my eyes.