The goodnight song

It's time to stop, time to breathe
Stop running, it's time to sleep
Ran hard as I could
Now catching my breath
It's time to stop
Watching my step

The bones then clutter
Slowly rumble
With pride I began
Then slowly humbled

It's time for this one
To rest and sleep
To turn into a lion
From being a sheep

The resilience comes
After the fall
Where one ends,
New chapters evolve

But now I close my eyes
And dream
Of stars and skies and
Happy things
And pray the lord
To give me sight
To wield my pen
And spread the light.

I wish i was better than this

I wish I was better
Better equipped and fast
I wish I was better
And can do things that last

Instead I'm left wandering
Wondering at the stars
Why do they seem to wink
And why are they so far?

Why could I not figure
What I'm supposed to do?
Instead I'm left trying
At something everyone is good

But where's my part written?
Why can I not read?
I'm trying hard to listen
But no one seems to speak

I wish I was stronger
To take on more of the blame
Some part of it was not my fault
But now it's all a shame

Wish I could see the stumbling blocks,
Before I fall on those
Wish I had seen a bit ahead
Instead of staring at my toes

I wish I could tell them
How I see through their lies
How I feel about their tears
And all their fake smiles

I wish I was better
At what my heart yearns
A skill that I'd enjoy
A skill that would earn

Keep your eyes and ear
Open wide, they said
You will learn a lot from that
I did, I'm afraid.

What you learn can shock you
It can make you wise
I choose to look elsewhere
And at things without disguise

The search will continue
A constant effort and will
A will to make a difference
An effort to build the skill.

Looking for the rainbow

Looking for that rainbow
Searching everyday
Need a little sunshine
Need a little rain

Sometimes the sun
Hides behind the clouds
Sometimes the sun
Dispels everything around

But the rainbow's formed
When they both meet
With a little bit of sunshine
A light drizzle greets

But there is a constant
Struggle for peace
One overlooks
The other oversees

Will I ever know?
Will it ever show?
Will the darkness be overcome with the right glow?

With the right balance
The colors come out
Yellow and grey give way
To the bright vibgyor

Looking at the wet sky
Seeing no sign
Waiting another day
Waiting another night

When you're trying to be strong

This calmness gets on my nerves
Suddenly it is so quiet
Like something about to swerve
This feeling can't be right

The sun hides behind the clouds
The sky gives out a shout
Then cries from the heavens
Here they come, all the doubts

It was good while it lasted
Is it too good to be true?
You can have only what you think deserves to be with you

Suddenly everything's wrong
All my steps are a stumble
The smiles and grins disappear
Replaced with such grim mumbles

A cloud of anger around
A shadow of doubt you see
The tears I thought were lost
It all comes back to me

Being sure of what to do
Does this feeling even exist?
What is that thing that I keep doing and makes me a misfit?

I wish I could just see
A little farther down my path
If I could avoid obstruction
I could've avoided this aftermath

Giving up is not an option
But this fight can't seem to win
Drives me up the wall
Sometimes crawls under my skin

I'm still looking for the answer
Frantic is my search
Beating my hands and legs
Got to float before I submerge

The ride is just like the 'show'
Come what may, it goes on
Clinging to threads of hope
And trying to be strong

7.7

There was this time
When I thought I could fly
There was this night
The seventh of July

The fire still burns
For the dreams of heart
Helps me drive
Gives me a start

So much to see and
so much to do
A lifetime too short
A lifetime with you

The other nods
Agrees this play
Shall last a while
shorter than we'd like

Indecisive confusion
Squanders my time
The most precious thing
At times called 'divine'

A song of dreams
Still on my lips
The feet will walk
On the morrow will eclipse
The patient wait shall see the light
Out of the shell, this one shall arise

Higher still, the soul shall fly
This promise made on seventh of july.

Distractions?

Have you any idea
What is going wrong
Swirling among the things
I cannot stand strong

How do I choose between
So many things I like
Some I called my passion
It was a different life

Even something as monotonous as the daily run
Shows the splendid rains and so many suns

Every step inspired
Towards a thousand things
Spoilt for choices they say
No way for all to win

What is life without much to do
A thousand things today
A Thousand more so few

The crumbling fool

A crack in the dawn
The silence so loud
There my eyes screaming
But my voice that shrouds

A part of me dreams
Defies destiny
Laughs on fate
Mocks heaven's gates

Then another part
The one I hate
Silences my vows
Deafens my pains
Shadows my light
Stifles my voice

I choke on words
Unsaid things don't hurt

Fulfill I must the confound luck
The mirror stares and asks where am I stuck?

Where's that thing I used to see
A part now just a memory
Where re those eyes I long again
The borrowed time that sealed my fate
Where are those moments never seemed to last?
The signs I now place on my mast
Where is that child like laugh and play
That now lights up the memory lane

Why am I looking at the road gone by
The cliff ahead looks up the sky
& says why bother the fool will jump
I say not yet there's more to come
What now seems like a fall tonight
It is the jump I take to flight
I may have my head down tonight
That is because I'm looking down to fly