Battling with unhealed scars

I wish to be forgotten, wish to be remembered
It's like all the things I hate have assembled
Sooner the better, farther I'm safe
Let's just get this over with

Every breath, a cry for mercy
a cry for help, understanding
Every smile, painful, cursed, it seems
Wish someone else, in my shoes can stand in

But the battles are mine
Must be fought and lost
Some memories preserved
rest best forgot

Every day a new life begins
Every night the old life ends

I'd throw it all away, revoke the world
rebel away in a recluse, as the darkness curls
around me, I'm safe but you can't run
no matter where, when; destiny under the sun

Uncertainty swells as now I can't see
the darkness paralyses, the calmed nerves to be
Slowly I shrug, and leave the spot
Head for the battle, my axe so strong

I may win, I may lose, as it's meant to be
My actions create my own destiny!

Zombie

the sun sets, i still breathe

can't see, but i still feel

struggled with it, binding tension

stunted them with my restriction

blankness engulfs, stare ahead

with the crowd let myself led

a lot bled, was it too less

not good enough i tell myself

free will, i then impel

all the hopes off i dispel

scurry away you tiny wimps

better off without the limps

forward marching left and right

towards my goal deft upright

no blood left for you to spill

take my life, but you can't kill.

Moving ahead

This Saiyan will ascend

this Atlas shall Shrug

Break i might not bend

I'll do what must be done

I'm not running away from adversity
I knew what i was getting into
Impossible rules to follow
Just as Em says, the words he'd be droppin

I'm not turning my back

Shocked by inconsiderate city

I demand reason for this lack

But this ain't no longer the same

Ain't afraid of the challenges

Rather bored of this game

In this mist I wallow

This pit ain't as shallow as it seemed

looking hard for my halo

Don't get it twisted ya'll it's not a plea that i'm coppin

The Arian's march

Dreams to be seen, dreams to be lived
Dreams to be dared, dreams to fulfill
Daring to fly, hoping to soar
Wishing upon that star below
Loving so deep, caring so much
Touching the hearts, getting that rush
Unconditional it is, nothing to lose
Only to gain, here with you
Thankful I am, grateful for time
Nowhere else I'd be, here I am
Walking ahead, going so slow,
Sprinting in a jiffy, it's me you know
Dreaming a dream, living in the clouds
Not backing down, head full of doubts
Still I fly, testing my wings
Uncharted grounds, uncharted winds
so much more, left to do
But rest I must that's best for you
Tomorrow's the time for another kill
Another battle, another will
Discovering self, recovering heart
Resilient minds, shining in the dark
On we go, forward we thrust
With fierce fire and courage in us.

Partial Clarity, total inaction

The questions dissolve, in itself absolved
The truth lies in there somewhere, resolved
This picture, clearer, though the context obscure
Trying to comprehend, more answers in store

A few steps later, the path unfolds,
revealing the mysteries, capturing the soul
Upon I came, difficult paths bestowed
Do I follow my heart or follow my goals?

The passion re-ignited, impossible to forget
distort-able desires, unpredictable fates
unshakable values, though, mistakable dates
Escapable temptations, Irreplaceable moments

The mist upon this heart must rise
For I need to see the paradise
Will the one I want, be the one I'll get
Will the one I'll get be the one that'll suffice?

To be or not to be

To be or not to be
To breathe or not to breathe
Which path unfolding to be chosen
The green or not so green?

I speak as I ought to speak
I dream as I ought to dream
Somewhere the world turns topsy turvy
I scream as I ought to scream

I run but I lose the race
I'd rather stride my way
Still a rat, in the game
I'd rather make my day

Distant numb today
I had my time in breeze
Now all gone away
I'm down but then there's more beneath

Be deceived or pretend to be
Not sure, let go of the trapeze
Clutching the loose bricks
I climb
Is it me or am i going down deep

Should I feel what I ought to feel
A foolish fool for my dreams
Drowning in the deepest seas
Of lights I dream and I see

Is it real as real it can be
Or beyond the realm it feels
Should it matter, shouldn't wouldn't
Couldn't help my heart it's free

Was it freedom that I desired?
Was it comfort that was meant to be?
Why do I miss the water
Doesn't make sense any

Do I know what I want to be?
Or where or who's for me?
Can I speak what i ought to speak?
Can I dream what I ought to dream?

Can I sing as I ought to sing?
With the voice that's deep within
Waiting for a sign from up above
Maybe as I ought to i'll breathe.

Proud and Arrogant!

Proud and arrogant riding the wave,
If I fall down, I'm gon just get up again,
This world is just stable for a fleeting moment
This surfboard my mate, someday, might not go with

The time passes and now I walk,
This road that climbs up miles in the dark,
Towards the light I cannot see,
There will be sunshine, I do believe

Alone as I came, alone I'll go
Fighting the battles for they're mine to blow
Fire in belly, fierce my pride,
Manifestation of the storm inside,

Here I go, always armoured up
Striding my way, clamoured up
Soul that screams for things they say
I don't need yours I make my own way.