Partial Clarity, total inaction

The questions dissolve, in itself absolved
The truth lies in there somewhere, resolved
This picture, clearer, though the context obscure
Trying to comprehend, more answers in store

A few steps later, the path unfolds,
revealing the mysteries, capturing the soul
Upon I came, difficult paths bestowed
Do I follow my heart or follow my goals?

The passion re-ignited, impossible to forget
distort-able desires, unpredictable fates
unshakable values, though, mistakable dates
Escapable temptations, Irreplaceable moments

The mist upon this heart must rise
For I need to see the paradise
Will the one I want, be the one I'll get
Will the one I'll get be the one that'll suffice?

To be or not to be

To be or not to be
To breathe or not to breathe
Which path unfolding to be chosen
The green or not so green?

I speak as I ought to speak
I dream as I ought to dream
Somewhere the world turns topsy turvy
I scream as I ought to scream

I run but I lose the race
I'd rather stride my way
Still a rat, in the game
I'd rather make my day

Distant numb today
I had my time in breeze
Now all gone away
I'm down but then there's more beneath

Be deceived or pretend to be
Not sure, let go of the trapeze
Clutching the loose bricks
I climb
Is it me or am i going down deep

Should I feel what I ought to feel
A foolish fool for my dreams
Drowning in the deepest seas
Of lights I dream and I see

Is it real as real it can be
Or beyond the realm it feels
Should it matter, shouldn't wouldn't
Couldn't help my heart it's free

Was it freedom that I desired?
Was it comfort that was meant to be?
Why do I miss the water
Doesn't make sense any

Do I know what I want to be?
Or where or who's for me?
Can I speak what i ought to speak?
Can I dream what I ought to dream?

Can I sing as I ought to sing?
With the voice that's deep within
Waiting for a sign from up above
Maybe as I ought to i'll breathe.

Proud and Arrogant!

Proud and arrogant riding the wave,
If I fall down, I'm gon just get up again,
This world is just stable for a fleeting moment
This surfboard my mate, someday, might not go with

The time passes and now I walk,
This road that climbs up miles in the dark,
Towards the light I cannot see,
There will be sunshine, I do believe

Alone as I came, alone I'll go
Fighting the battles for they're mine to blow
Fire in belly, fierce my pride,
Manifestation of the storm inside,

Here I go, always armoured up
Striding my way, clamoured up
Soul that screams for things they say
I don't need yours I make my own way.

Merry Christmas!

Hang up the stockings, light up the tree

thousands of gifts, millions of dreams

May the sleigh arrive on your rooftop

May from the chimney, the fat man drop

May he fill all the stockings with joy,

and beneath the tree lay all the toys

I prayed for my millions to come true

The thousands you can keep with you

"The power for the million's within", he said

"Believe in yourself, than me instead"

Santa I'm afraid they might break,

the more I wish the higher the stake

"Why do you fear, my child" He said

"My love will guide, let yourself be led"

I wink at Santa and ask where's my gift?

He says close your eyes and make a wish.

Merry Christmas!

Pointing fingers seldom show the way!

All the fingers at me point
Clueless, ignorance bliss divine
Tears of blood, the pain in vain
Just another normal day

Trying hard, failing bad
Earnest efforts we don't care
I am wrong and always will
Cos I'm not you, this road downhill

The tired apprehensions misconstrued
The dialogues twisted as suited to you
Hopelessly messed to think it through
Obviously more than misunderstood

Here i fall, one more night
Of hopeless vain paradise
Awake I will to the nightmare
Passion filled with despair

Alone I stand, alone I fall
Alone me climbing up the walls
Alone I'll soar, alone I dream
The fingers will still point at me!

Good ol' story

This is the story of an old couple still hopelessly in love. This is a story of the successful marriage. This is the story that everybody dreams of. This is the poem you would want to write 50 years from now.


Not limited by insecurity
Not limited by calculations
It's just that someone close to me
It's normalcy not an aberration

There's no count of give and take
There's only give, let em fly than stay
There need be not an exact reply
But when with her i touch the sky

I stand on cloud, I'm over the moon
I do not fear if it'll end too soon
For its the present we cherish and live
For its the present, that we believe

And after all is said and done,
It was the present that I remember
The present then, when we were one
A present still now, we have just begun

We are now old, still my hand in yours
Yours in mine, more strength it draws
You are to me still my beloved dearest
The lines on our faces drawn when clearest,

I'm still that guy who falls for you,
Each day in the morn when the sun comes through
You are still the beauty, I fell for then,
To love you more, me God has sent

I still look at you, starry-eyed
Still admire the way I'm tongue tied
You melt my heart, with that warm smile
With you, it's small a thousand miles

The love for you is self proclaimed
And with pride I say it's truly divine
But what is far greater, greater still,
Is what she feels for me, the love so fine

Knowing her unwavering love with me,
It gives me strength and helps me breathe,
In these old fragile hands I still see
The power to hold her hands to safety

We still laugh at the jokes I crack,
To see you laugh, i do this tack
We still walk albeit so slow
When with you time loses track

We grew so much
We have come through
After the upward struggle
Happiness plateau
Our beautiful children's beautiful children
The beauty has surely come from you

Young and wild, were we once
For love was upon us bestowed
My love still growing for you even
We're parents and grandparents now.

Together we've lived our entire lives,
We would choose the same but then we're destined
Together we'll be, death won't do us part
A special place in God's heart.


I'll go first and make some room
You join me then but please come soon
I can't say i'll die again, but
I'd rather in death be with you

Incessant Rambling

Shut up brain, shut up heart,
This is not the place to start
Relax and stop thinking now
Let numbness smother things that are

Perhaps tomorrow be the day,
Perhaps never as they say
Why bother what happens, it's my pride
And numbness I have by my side.

Losing sleep doesn't count, wakin up is what matters now
Endless wasted moments before I bow
What resulted in a shattered crown

Building bridges just to burn,
Withheld inhibitions in to swirl
Fuming, consuming thoughts arrive
Taking my sleep in its stride

I hate to have them back today,
On my way to sleep heaven
Why do you raise your wicked head
Stir up confusion instead

Let me sleep go back you thoughts
My heart ain't ideal landing spot
I'll brush them away instantly
Time to take one more morphine

Then I fall unconscious me
Fists clenched constantly
Waking up, I feel alive
Fists unclenched but not relieved

Shut up brain, shut up heart
What you say is miles apart
One too sorrow in recluse
Other too cheerful, to be true

Fairly level headed not me
Afraid to tread now in between
Too forward or conservative
I'll find the middle ground superlative

There's no reason for dichotomy
Both have best interests for me,
When they're one, the heart and brain
There's nothing which I can't obtain

The possibility of such a thing,
Is what makes us wish, makes me dream
Defy them all, on a wing,
Unachievable, no such thing.

There we go, the train of thoughts,
The pouring of the mind distraught,
The fire's ignited, 't has to last,
Finally ready to have a blast.