The New Year's Gift:

The reflection that looked so deep
the glass shatters with a blast
Meaning lost with all the blame
And of things that can't last

Questioning self again
What is it that i missed?
The answers came all pouring down
Like it never did

The brooding won't really help
But catharsis' all I've got
Some things are better left unsaid
But are they best forgot?

The lessons aren't meant to be learnt
The jaded fibs and rhymes
The co-actor's part that played out
Like a crime
The play thus ends like everything
Must some day, some time
All the things that could have been
Clears the heart and mind

The heart then aches and oozes
Indirect was the cause
The definite close for a chapter
But will i ever miss what never was?

Level zero

The rush of happiness and roaring rage
Things of all that may be envisaged
Everything is over, the end of the road
A rigid reluctance, if truth be told

Nothing was ever predicted before
Suddenly how's it an uncertain lore?
Like a free fall or a crashing plane
But things will never be the same again

How will it be, do I want to know?
The truth is no, still looking, I suppose
Only a grey cloud from the window I see
God! What's with all the secrecy?

A better path, they say, is yet to come
A humorless laugh I subject for some
Excuses, excuses! what better to say?
Time still goes on while making hay

Stomping forward, the turn I see
Tilting my head discreetly
With shoulders down yet pace ahead
The space which leads me to me

A declaration

Now or never, tonight the wait forever
Is drawing an end, trying to mend
Daylight is drawing too thin
Here we are, biding our time,
In fact the hands are itching
I can barely stop from committing a crime,
Wish I didn't have the mind, but
In my heart I know what's right
Little pieces of me, sums up
Little pieces of wisdom
All the temptations can't reason it out
Love will win but apathy works it out
Ways to win? What you take this for a game?
Ain't gonna fall for something so lame
Yesterday ends as it must one day
Sun must rise on the morrow if strayed
Listening to the inner voice , strapped in chains,
Over the heels I ain't, anymore in vain
Vacuity looks like its here to stay
Enter night, I will wait for the day
Under the looming darkness, hay can't be made.

A sweet dream

There you were and so was I
How the happiness fills my eyes
So close we are, what's this I see?
How can this be just a dream?

If it is, don't wake me up
Don't let me face the day no more
I'm happy in this sweetest bliss
Where things don't go wrong, it seems
Where I can speak my mind out loud
Where people understand and not too proud
Where I'm not alone in the crowd
Where there's no such thing as luck confound

A silent prayer's on my lips
A part of whatever I glimpsed
Please just let that part come true
When the journey's made for two

But what begins shalt surely end
I cringe, i sigh but smiles amend
Doesn't matter if my dream comes true
That part of me, I lived with you

Forever in love

People will come and they will go
But there's one thing you should know
You're stuck in my heart
And even if everything falls apart
I'll stay, cos you're always with me
I'm yours forever, you're within me
To stop loving you, impossibility
If you ask your heart, you will see
I'm right, right here for you, its true
There will come a million ways
But some things just don't change.

Uncertain roads

Alas a part of what was whole
A broken heart and tired soul
The path steadfast on which I walked
Has been blasted, has been shot

Creeping darkness death it seems
Would welcome it with open arms
But life it is none that I dreamed
Bleeding crimson on open palms

Upon that shiny star I pray
For deliverance or for some tourniquet
For dreams forgotten, eyes awake
With weight of world in mind he slept.
But he didn't sleep for long
His dreams didn't let him rest
Nightmares to whom they belong?
I want none of it for test

Waking up with heavy breaths
Wide awake scared by what I saw
Put this uncertainty to rest
Only one way my mind be thawed

No road ahead to look up nigh
I'll just have to make my way
Blast the mountain, tear the sky
This story far from over I say

So what if I have to walk alone
I'll be the one to wipe my tears
I'll be my guide, my coach lone
I'll fight on my own all my fears

The things sometimes that we bear
They can never understand
It is pointless to tear my hair
I make mistakes, I'm just a man

Giving up I do not know
For I can never quit trying
Upon the coldness of the snow
We will try and keep on riding

I will one day reach that point
Find my gold and find my shrine
Then I'll kneel with scraped knee joint
I hope its worth all pain to find.

Me and her....fate i.e.

the fate may conspire
It's a game to her, see
To say I let her,
Would be a joke on me
I look to the skies
Shake my head in retreat
I dance to her tunes
and sing to her beats
I laugh along
To myself I smile
I'm not giving up
I'll go on for a while
You may test me
Fill my paths with holes
I'll jump the small ones
For the big, use the poles
But I'll walk the path
and reach my goals
I'll try to be sane
and smile when I'm worn
But I won't stop tryin
cos it's not who I am
and I won't start lying
cos this is who I am.