Seething

The crusty voices, underlying mistrust

Cushioned in laughter and playfulness

A shallow sporadic voice that bursts

What comes after is venom as jest

You're fooling none, I know this game

understand the friction, shades of grey

What I've become, what this became

We pan the diction, needle in bale

A foot soldier marching on today

Over the hill, over the fire

Across the river, inside the maze

Knowing a trap, follow the sire

What good is a rant that can't be heard

If thoughts are stifled and Hands tied

Dense smoke that comes with mirror,

shards of glass swallowed with pride

I fight I fight the indignant fight

Inside my head a storm brews

Outside is rainbows and butterflies

My demeanor, sharp and cool

This has to stop the seething rage

That grows inside this caged Bird

Face I must or simply walk away

This rising wave must not be curbed.

For I might lose the inner voice

The discerner of black and white

The toughest war rages within

When soul and mind stir up a fight

Another way, a clearer path

Alternatives must be found tonight

For I may not rise if I fall,

My freedom is my own device

As the world turns cold

A Nick, a nudge, so quick to judge
Can't be careful, pressure's too much
Blatant blame, as egos touch
Better pack a punch, Don't think as such

Stepping on toes, drawing first bows
Don't think twice,  no peace restored,
Indecency is acceptable, Cheating is smart
Pushing things on another is the only way to start

As this world turns cold, spite turns bold
Hate turns stronger, love gets told
Politeness walked upon, sad and stowed
Waiting for a spark that's expected to mold

The likes that trample on bodies and souls
To stand up for one, in spite of what's sold,
I'd rather be thought of as Meek and old
Then the smart ones, as the story unfolds

The gory details will swallow you whole,
When these gallows completely shake your core,
Remember, despite being hurt and sore,
Stand your ground, reinforcement in store

I'm going through changes, like Em and Oz
Rough edges rounded, but I hit the pause,

I reflect back as I feel my frozen hands
Leaden head with an evasive stance
I scream, yell, but glide the way through
Make new way for the latest recruit!

Before the end

The road of maze on which I walk
It twists and turns around
In store I have a lot of rage
But ignorant and happy I sound

The invisible thorns I walk upon
They pierce the cheery soul
The mud that splashes all around
They soil the heart of stone

can see the setting sun ahead
But I must walk on some more
To be the man I think I am
I must pursue this lore

The legs froze in it's wake
So stiff, my brain has frozen
This is something I can't shake
Maybe this is the moment chosen

Indeed we know how it all ends
But I must suffer some more
Till I'm scraped away, I've lent
My limbs left to be torn

Maybe the maze will be solved
I might spot an exit
Or too much I get involved
And it's too late to forfeit

As long as the blood and sweat
And tears don't dry my soul
The mind perseveres till last breath
I'll go on, till I'm not told.

Uneasiness before the dawn

Undefined, unexplained
Why d' you always do this brain?
You don't think, you just feel
Can't figure it out, it's so insane

To not know why you're feeling down, downtrodden, walked upon
To cloud your space with all this hate, I think heart, that's your job

If heart and brain are one
As they say it should be
Will my heart be doing all
The thinking this evening?

I don't feel good, you're both crazy
Maybe it's just tiredness
Or maybe it will take some time
To sort through this wired mess

It's not right, is what I know
This knot this clog in my head
Stops me from thinking, sleeping, guess I'll pop a pill instead

That should help, just one more pill
And I just hope I'm in my bed
I overdozed, on placebos
The sugar got me writing next

Now it's time, for me to read
Oh good, this should work just fine
I saw them sheeps and count to three
And hope tomorrow's gon' be all right

Be that rainbow!

When music lifts you at the end of day
The sky is overcast but you make hay
Elevated in this downtrodden world
When things don't come your way you learn
These moments of magic then paves the way
There seems to be no apparent change
The eyes when closed, the heart smiles
The melodies on which my life rides
The beat on which I walk again
The lyrics, everything I want to say
A silent acknowledgement of what I feel
How steady knowledge went from these streets
No more room for no complaints
No expectation, no pain, no gain
No highs to reach, no lows to fall
Only skies, to see and mine to call
Only time can be my friend and foe
Forget everything and start with hope
I reconcile the cranky child in me
So much more to learn and seek
Why bother with all the hopeless vain
Thoughts that bring me down again
Why not choose the exciting path
Where glory would be built to last
Why not see the sun in clouds
Why can't light be in darkness found
Why not hope to live some more
Why not smile and laugh from core
Why not sing and dance in mirth
Why not make this time worth?
Nothing lasts? That's a lie!
This moment lasted for a lifetime
So many lives yet to be lived
So many chances to be seized
So what if today it poured and rained
Shine! Be that rainbow and bless it came

At a loss for words

So much inside me
Beneath it stirs
But strangely I find me
At a loss for words

Sometimes silent
Like a saint
At times violent
Mighty rage
Comes out in different forms
And hurts
But I find myself at a loss for words

It has been too long
That I've written a prose
Started so many
Then my heart froze
Witty got pitiful, the city got cold
But I'm still at a loss for words

The feelings are lodged
In a heart chamber, locked
Trying out  all keys
Maybe I'll just knock
The letters approach the door then blur
Once again, at a loss for words

They used to be my lone strength
At will I would make egos bend
But now the eerie silence creeps
In their search I travel within, deep
Maybe someday they will again surge
But for now, I'm at a loss for words

I hope I crack this labyrinth
With some luck, maybe a shady hint
A crazy insight, a secret path
A steady journey and a bloody lint

We will meet soon, where words won't end
Where heart is empty and eyes don't lament
But till such time, a cost to be occurred
For I am, truly, at a loss for words.

Walking on broken glass

Wavered faith and darkened past
Makes me walk on broken glass
It is by choice, it's how I voice
Some right actions for some wrong past

It all started with one wrong move
One lesson less learned in school
One path easy, one way hard
One called to me, other seemed far

I chose the familiar, saw known faces
It doesn't take time, time it erases
All the faith I seemingly had
Now, how much can I understand

Broken vows and forgotten pledge
Brings me closer to the edge
Just when I'm about to fall
I seem to have a good recall

The path now seems to fade away
T'was only one from which I swayed
The broken bottles on the way
Must walk back, with brittle pace,

The path untrodden may not be wrong
If only the little voice had been strong,
But now as all is said and done
The voice be heeded and things undone

A difficult tread back to the start,
But now I will not lose heart,
The demons shall be put to rest,
And the weight be lifted off my chest!