Here We Go Again

It's that time of the year, when everybody celebrates
When it all comes to the end, and here we go again
The things that everybody does,we never seem to do
It's no more fun to roam about, we're getting stuck in the blue

Some memories were bitter, we took a pinch of salt
And the good ones, we had real fun, and remembered Galt

Hoping for a better year and we hope for something new
We hope that things will change now and hope we start anew
Try to ignite that fire we try to find that spark,
The winter here was pretty bad, the snow wiped it out

With courage I move forward and with grit I grind my teeth
The fist is clenched and bleeds blood and the brow forms a V
I take a pledge and decide with resilience i'll strike back
I won't let anything faze me, with patience i'll attack


The bad things were a good riddance and the good was not so great
Glad to move on ahead and now with Janus we shake
The lessons we learnt were not so great, for more we do yearn
The more we try to get, the more we do discern

With hope filled in my heart, i take my blithe step
Towards the light that's promising and I'm all set
Let's celebrate the past, the things that's best forgotten
And usher in the new year and and walk the paths untrodden

We Love the Vandals

vandals shun and vandals blow
vandals steal all the show
another holy day it is
what happened, who wants to know!

trains stopped, buses halt
venture out and dealt with, you shalt
thou shalt sit and wonder why
der aint a bandh everyday

Students cheer, parents sigh
to hell with the politician guy
don't matter if it's heritage
or someone else's job at stake

i wonder not, i kid you not
i don't care how much the goi's lost
they don't care, they don't see
you can't put the blame on me

in the end it all cools down,
post-drama nobody wears a frown,
what just happened we don't know
got to work tomorrow for sure!

I've learned to Live

along came i, with nothing to lose
when there were simpler things to choose,
but life grows and moves ahead
and difficult becomes fun instead

weirdness and uneasiness go hand in hand sometimes
when you try to judge someone and u end up with a y
break do expectations and shatters does the dream
without a sound you learn to weep, with a smile you learn to scream

clenching fist hide the anger 'cause in my pocket is my hand
the tears flow with the rain and nobody understands

you learn to live with cruelty, the world at first it seems
the sorrow's buried deep within, you see it in your dreams
now that it's been a long time, unreal it seems to me
that i smile with the world and have forgotten broken things
have learnt to live away from all, though company i do keep
i laugh and talk but i do remember, i am what i need

now with a chip on my shoulder, wandering 'bout this road
i need nobody beside me, i'm better off alone
i need no shoulder to cry on or hands when i'm in dark
no voice to care for me, i shun this world's facade
i don't care about their advices, i don't care about the games
i'l be damned to get affected, it doesn't matter what you say

this i've learnt to live with, and have longed to be this free
alone i am and will be and when it's over i'l be in peace.

Glad I can't turn back time

We all expect. We expect that our family, our friends will take care of us, help us, listen when you need them the most, that someone somewhere will think of us, and at times, think for us. We expect that we will reap the fruits of the seeds we never sowed, in a land long forgotten and alien to the concept of sowing. All in all, my point is we all expect some things that we expect us to deserve or believe is made for us, sometimes unreasonably. But where does that leave us? What does that really give us?

Disappointments, heartbreaks, shattered confidences and teary eyes. In turn, a scary world, despicable people, unreliable friendships, judging relationships and discerning attitudes.
I’ve learnt something. It may probably be termed as escapism. But what if we stop expecting things. Isn’t that what Lord Krishna asked us to do in Geeta?

Not expecting anything from anybody to do anything for us, ever. Let’s take this “not expecting things” to a deeper level.
What will happen if we stop expecting?

We will never be hurt if our friends forget us or don’t help us. If there’s a party and you are not invited, you have got nothing to be upset about, because you were not expecting to be invited anyway and you had already planned what you’ll be doing in that time. Every party invitation then comes as a surprise, although nothing changes after that. You still don’t expect people to like you, you don’t expect to have fun at the party, you don’t expect to meet new people, you don’t expect the house to be filled with people dancing and boozing [after all, in India, a popular connotation of a party is having free dinner!]. So every new person you meet is a pleasure. Everything comes as a pleasant surprise.
My disclaimer here is, you can never stop expecting from the person you know the best. You. The only person you can talk into, to take up challenges, constantly.

Not expecting does not mean following Murphy’s Law [Everything that can go wrong, will go wrong]. It just means not having any pre-conceived notions in one’s mind. When you hear of an event, say a concert, you form a certain image and a certain level of expectation in your mind. You picture yourself getting new clothes for the concert, singing the chorus with the singer, shaking hands with the band, taking a picture with the band and probably an autograph too. What you end up in doing is trying to get a glimpse of the band from the last row where you can hear the crowd more than the band.

Pessimism? Maybe. But the good thing about pessimism is that I can never be sad reminiscing because you never reminisce. I feel it is better that what’s done is done because if I had a choice you would never turn back time. This is because, it would mean, going through the same things I could barely stand happening once. whatever that's happened seems like good riddance and whatever that's gonna happen is uncertain and hence there's actually nothing to look forward to and nothing to regret. Simple.