Finding the resilience

Drowning in the pit of inaction's paralyze
Engulfing darkness exploding into thousands of vague mirage
Creeps in desperation, but I am the strength seeker
The pit is not deep enough, instead i now dig deeper

Alone i am and want to be, the sins are mine to bear
Not lonely and making solitary retreat, perpetual frown i wear
Invisible cross I carry, 'cross the life's street
Is it delirium I'm experiencing or with pain i do really meet

The moon sets as the night’s glory rests in peace
The rays penetrate the darkness; dispels everything weak
This satchel's my baggage, a constant that's with me
Weighing me down as i walk, a burden, a part of me.

The fury burns within, potency grows to speak
The reckless part I cut it off and throw across the sea
That part is what I hated, I will not reminisce
The peeled knees will get me through this abhorrent journey

This knot in my mind is untied to pave way for more to learn
These boundaries that are self proclaimed be felled with a loud thud
Now i spend my waking hours, trying to wake up
The flowers i crushed on my way, I'm trying to make it up

Now i find my darkness, in the shadow I see the light
I see the view in front of me, I found what was right
I thank my stars above; I've been saved from the blight
Prepare I will ahead, the resilience's back to fight

With might in my thoughts, my pride now sits upright
With armour in my hand, and vision in my sight
I'm out to seek my destiny, the one I'll write myself
Reason's the totem I've discovered, of the end no longer afraid!

Some truths we got to live through

Five of the toughest truths that we have to live through:

1. Our love not reciprocated
2. Letting down somebody
3. Being the reason for someone's tears
4. Being silent when a friend accuses you and you know he's right
5. Not reciprocating somebody's love as you can't lie to yourself

Am I Unforgiven too?

I wrote a small song inspired from Metallica's "Unforgiven ii"
Unforgiven ii talks about how a man bitter from the world's agonies dubs the world as unforgiven and when he finds out that the only person he trusted ultimately betrays him, he kills her. Here's my take on the other side of the story.


I Lay beside you
You don't see me in the eye
So much more i want to explain
But something else is on your mind

The hopes that I see, On them you shut your door
I hold the key and I know a way
but we are where we were before
Back then you heard me
But you won't listen anymore
Inebriety gleams in your eyes
You won't listen anymore,
won't listen anymore
you just won't listen!

What I've felt, what I've done
I did for you and now I'm home
My love will you, now open the doors to the truth
What I've felt, what I've done
Ain't one of them, with you I belong
You didn't hear me out, and you don't see the sun, do you?
Am I unforgiven too?

I lay beside you
It couldn't hurt me any more
You shut your door and I, my eyes
you free me from this world
I lay beside you
and now you'll never know
i held the key to all their lies
but i'll leave you in their world,
never dreamed I'd lose to drugs
I can't believe it!

What I've felt, what I've done
I did for you and now I'm home
My love will you, now open the doors to the truth
What I've felt, what I've done
Ain't one of them, with you I belong
You didn't hear me out, and you don't see the sun, do you?
Am I unforgiven too?

Always me, was always free
but I'm unforgiven too.



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Lyrics of the real song by Metallica

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun
shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

[Chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

Yeah
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love
again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when
I'm gone
Yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there

[Chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

[Solo]

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes, now I see it

[Chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits
The one who waits for you


Oh, what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, just turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

(Background) So I dub thee Unforgiven.

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known

I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too!

Never free
Never me
Because you're unforgiven too..
Oo-Oh-Oo